Breast feeding journey with Kassidi Hazel

So I have three children.  Kassidi is 8 ½ years old.  Karlee is 5 years old.  Skylar is 4 ½ months old. I am going to write three parts about my breastfeeding journey.  I’m hoping it’ll help someone someday.  J   I was 20 years old when I had Kassidi.  I thought about breastfeeding but I knew no one who breastfed.  There were no breastfeeding classes only some books but the books all contradicted each other.  I had decided I was going to try because I had heard it was the best thing for my baby. I knew though if I couldn’t breastfeed I would get formula for free from WIC and the hospital had stated they could help with formula also.  I was in labor for over 10 hours and the baby was very stressed so I ended up in emergency cesarean.  Kassidi was 3 hours old by the time I got to hold her for the first time.  The nurse handed her to me and stated do you want to try and breastfeed, I replied yes.  So I pulled down my gown and looked at the nurse gracefully where the nurse stated just put her on the boob.  So I put my sweet baby there and she just fussed and fussed.  She would try to latch then come off fussing.  The nurse stated oh she will get it and walked out.  An hour later Kassidi was screaming so I push the nurse button and they ask me what I want over an intercom.  I responded I need help breastfeeding.  The nurse goes oh I’ll be there as soon as I can.  Almost half hour later the nurse came in and starts freaking out on me telling me my baby was starving and I needed to feed her.  I started bawling I need help I do not know what I am doing.  The nurse stated just put her to the boob then watched me do that and walked out.  About an hour later Kassidi was just constantly fussing and crying I was at a loss at what to do.  My nipples were red and one of them was bleeding.  It felt like my nipples were comparing pain with my c-section. I finally gave in and pushed the nurses button and stated bring me a formula bottle.  I was done breastfeeding.  I had no clue what I was doing.  When the nurse came in she brought a case of little 4 oz bottles to feed my baby and she brought me some pacifiers.  When it was time for me to go home I received a diaper bag full of formula and diapers.  I was told formula was just as good as breast milk and I believed it.  I was also a young single mom in the United States Navy so I did what I had to do.